what have i done?
if i can only stop thinking for myself for one minute.
fuckin self-centred.
but i dont know why it just hurt so much.it's really contradicting and my own thoughts just confuses me like mad.
i keep trying to put myself in another's shoes but with the left foot in and the right staying glued to my own shoe. no not a half-hearted attempt but it's just.. im not that selfless and saint-like a person and i just cant help it that my feet feels more comfortable in my shoes than yours.
and then a moment of truth... both foot were in my shoes and i got sucked into my own whirlpool of arguments and i lost control.
i did, in the words of ouer, a horrible stunt.
times like this the truckload of repititive reasonings collide and fuse frantically, then explode like a supernovae and the end product: a supermassive black hole. ---> BLANK. there you go, i go blank again. which means no right words, no coherent, structured sentences that makes sense.
ok stop talking stop talking, lin xinyi.
it's always like that with me isnt it, the more i try to make things right they more wrong they get.
silence is the best policy, actually, really.
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