there's no world outside;

make an effort.

Sunday, October 19, 2008

1:32 AM

Chandler: You’re Monica and I am in love with Monica.
Monica: Keep going...
Chandler: So you can ballon up or you can shrink down, and I will still love you.
Monica: Even if I shrink down to 2 inches tall?
Chandler: I’ll carry you around in my pocket.

Labels: friends

crestfallen

Friday, October 17, 2008

12:48 PM

OMFG.
you're not gonna belive this because i cant and refuse to accept the fact that MY GROUP SUBMITTED OUR ACCOUNTING PROJECT LATE. can you fucking believe it?! this is so unbelievable it almost feels surreal. and if i want to trace back and find the faults in each group member that ultimately led us to our doom so that i can push the blame to everyone esle but me, you know what..I CAN!

1. the most prominent character undoubtedly is...not the genius of our group, but the malaysian who went totally MIA. he was supposed to send me his part by wed night before leaving for his hometown, and please bear in mind that we only started on our parts THIS WEEK when the project is due on friday, and well not so surprisingly, he didnt. so basically, the project is done by not 4, but 3 members. but it doesnt matter anyway because i dont think his contribution will make any difference.

2. we were supposed to complete everything last night and we could have but obviously didnt due to some reasons i choose not to state here. i stayed up all the way till 6am in the morning, unable to contact ANY of my group members at all, and waited and waited with HOPE AND FAITH. which were too frail to rely on in the end.

and i can go on about other nitty gritty factors that could have contributed to our incorrigible late submission in one way or another, even in the smallest possible way, but ultimately, i still feel so guilty because i thought the submission deadline was 1230pm when it was actually 12pm.

and when editing projects, the perfectionist and anal-retentive part of me kicks in at full force and times like this, it has proven to be more harmful than good. with that stupidly imagined 1230pm deadline looming in my head, i edited and edited until we finally submitted our project at 1220pm. so should i take comfort that my time management is actually not that hopeless because if the deadline was what i thought to be 1230pm, WE WOULD HAVE SUBMITTED EARLY?! duh....fuck no! ultimately ULTIMATELY, the heartbreaking, mind-boggling fact is that we submitted the project LATE.

argh but this totally wouldnt have happened if i received all the files LAST NIGHT! remember i stayed up till 6am waiting and waiting and waiting. i was so prepared to not sleep at all to complete it. damn it. whatever xinyi, YOU STILL REMEMBERED THE DEADLINE WRONGLY.

i am beyond sian now.
seriously hope profgoh will be like my colaw prof: not particular on this punctuality of hardcopy issue (cause i submitted the softcopy on the dot. 12pm. and i found out the real deadline at 11.59am. maybe i should count my blessings instead. hurhur.)
anyway due credit has to be given to yz for her contribution.
would have submitted EVEN later if not for her.

so, this totally ruined the start of the weekends i was so looking forward to.
prawning, gossip girl, friends. i see no joy in them no more.
you know ive lived this week just for the sake of le weekends?
just tell me everything's gonna be okay.
oh so fucking okay.

Labels: rage, school

& that is one of the reasons why i hate school.

Sunday, October 12, 2008

9:52 PM

I AM SO FUCKING FED UP WITH MY T TEACHER AND HER IMPOSSIBLY BRIEF NOTES.

FUCK!

Labels: school

you guys...

12:04 AM

im feeling down in the dumps.

not because the karaoke outing was boring or horrible, it's because it was great and i miss my old friends already. singing all the old songs just reminded me of the good old days, and i would love to experience a day in dhs again. but make it a day where there's a food fair held in the canteen, where we can dedicate songs to each other, where we can play captains ball, or just walk around in threes and sing and talk all day.

i havent been out with guys like jinrui and alan for a long time. to me, they are different. different from the guys i hang out with in uni. maybe they are not exactly different but it just feels so to me because they are simply, them, different in a heartwarming way. i am lucky to have such brothers. :)

damn i want to runaway so much. from that horribly stressful place called school.
and i dont wanna return to hall, i wanna stay home, a place brimming with love.
i cant wait for exams to be over but at the same time i dread its arrival.
i am not kidding or trying to scheme when i say i am really pretty lost in my school work this sem.
i hate this feeling.

make it go away.
i want to see them again. my trusty old friends.
:(

Labels: friends, paper shoes

yadayada

Friday, October 10, 2008

2:47 AM

the week was spent doing everything but work!

and last week i went prawning for 2 hours. and caught 3 prawns. of which none was by me.

man i suck at prawning! haha. i choose to believe that im just unskilled because it was my first try. i let the prawns take the bait and escape unharmed. CAN I BE ANY KINDER? or in everyone else's words...LOUSIER.

supposed to go again this friday with shawn and charlene, but shawn cant make it. boring~

monday i just kept sleeping, the same went for tuesday, so much so that i cant really recall what happened for those 2 days.

and wednesday i went to Queensway to get my buddy her tennis racket for her 21st birthday, which is today!

i was so looking forward to IKEA food and when i finally had it, yea expectedly, it was helluva GOOOD. i just cant get enough of IKEA food--cheap and delicious. the cake was soooo good we bought the whole cake from the food mart for today's celebration. woohoo~ and no points for guessing who ate half the cake just now.

& i thought i should start to do some real preparation for tutorials, unfortunately i ended up talking to TJC again. bad bad.

last time it was POH whom i talked to for hours during exam study breaks.

now it's TJC! hahaha omg! this is baddd.

the death of me!

so today! buddy's 21st birthday countdown supper :D was fun!

ate pizza, garlic bread, drumlets (mmm..ive loved those drumlets since i was a kid) and that superb IKEA cake. we filmed a short, extremely retarded video. which was so hilarious i laughed till i was rolling on the floor. we were so shamelessly loud i think people wanted to throw stuff in my room's direction. :S

my buddy is a JOKE. joke-sephine. there i came up with yet another new nickname for her, what a versatile name! just like chuck bass! (chuck basstard, mother chucker. especially love the latter) :)

next up...netball! woohooo i loved it! because bud was too strong for netball, yingli was too chio when playing, eugene was too hyperactive--prancing around with tons of coins jiggling in his pockets, yuzhen was too skilful and fed up with bernard and of course...because bernard was too funnily..LOUSY, a true netball king.

we should do this more often! and im sure we all want to :D