2:01 PM
"the xinyi i know is strong"
really?
even if you're not,
then lxy, make it happen.
it's ok. i'll disappear.Labels: paper shoes
like a teardrop in the rain...
9:11 PM
spent all my money today
tt's all. haha.
on friday morning i met twain at the bus stop
we sat there, side by side, for more than 5 mins before realising it was each other
and for the first time after being 12 years of schoolmates
i talked to twain. [i hope ur reading this ou er. lol]
our conversation lasted till he left at tanah merah.
AMAZING? yes i think so.
because i cant even keep a conversation continue continuously with some good friends
maybe i was in a cheery mood early in the morning.
and prob he's the one with the skills to make a conversation last.
and yea of course, i think twain is nice.
my mother told me how daddy and her would always look forward to saturdays when they were dating.
and daddy will always squeeze out time and find all means to fetch her at her office
how sweet. lol.
i wonder how my parents worked everything out.
today i overheard a conversation of a mother and her girl
the daughter commented on a taxi driver living in Mandarin Gardens cause she saw an empty cab drive in
the mother just kept replying "how is that possible" or anything that meant "That's impossible"
she listed reasons like probably the cab was on call. and how the maintanence fee is sky high and a taxi driver could never afford to live there.
it may be true. but it's not the case for all i bet.
i was so turned off.
simply because she sends off the vibe that she looks down on taxi drivers.
so downright sure that all of it is impossible.
i had the urge to turn around and snap at her "how can you be so sure".
random thing of the day:
my right shoulder has been aching for a few days
i seriously need a good massage to ease the tension
it's the kind of subtle, consuming disappointment and helplessness
making you even more cynical than ever.
at the end of the day, we are all alone.
simply because of the sad fact that.
we can all live without each other.
lastly. a picture.
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12:42 AM
my colleague. a 40+ years old taiwanese man told me in chinese:
not to ever change cause it's good.
what's good? smiling and laughing all the time.
because when people got older, they smile and laugh less.
so dont ever change.
haha.very nice.
i smiled and nodded my head.
and on that night
i sobbed in front of the computer.
he would never have guessed that.
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be free but not lost...
11:44 PM
i had a pretty good day yesterday.
plainly because of my job.
today my boss wasnt around. i had absolutely nothing to do.
i just sat there and read my storybook
and i wanted to cry during the sad parts.
BUT I CANT. lol
i thought i'm sec 2/3 alr?
now im back to SEC ONE?!?!?!
to think i thought i looked even older yesterday cause of what i wore
work is great. the people are nice and friendly.
much nicer than those in the 1st job. the girls i mean. :S
the guys are all very friendly. they say good morning to random people.
lol. even the canteen aunty is friendly.
PARVATI MUST GO.
(phew~ luckily ozzy wasnt seduced by her)
and ozzy reminds me of johnny depp.
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first aid please.
10:19 PM
i wished for the sweetest dream
be careful what you wish for
i had a dream so horrid and depressing i cried without knowing
man..give me a sweet one today? some healing touch?
when people fail you, what do you do?
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to wear or not to wear?
10:16 PM
am i allowed to wear my heart on my sleeve?
not really anymore.
as the distance grows, the harder i find it to.
but it's good isnt it? that if i wont do that.
i think you'll be/are happy about it.
so what do you think i should/can do?
i'm already trying my best to be positive and nonchalant
i think i've done pretty okay. no?
with my period coming soon, im sure to go so low in no time. or perhaps the time has arrived all too suddenly, like now.
i can already feel the postivity being striipped away bit by bit, inevitably.
it's really not quite within my control.
but i've tried and i've changed.
do you recognise my efforts?
or is it like what the magazine said..."nothing is ever quite good enough for him"
what if. nothing is ever quite good enough for me too?
haha. what a disaster.
indeed.
wait. am i wearing my heart on my sleeve now?
haha.
i had a tiring day.
knocked off at 7+pm cause i left early yest.
now i have transport. much better.
forgot to tap my card again. sigh.
i hope my period comes quickly (but not on days when im wearing white bottoms)
so that i can get over and done with it for the month.
nthg alr. just mundane stuff.
i didnt know a friend could care to the extent zhenhui does
i hope one day everyone gets a chance to make a friend like that.
goodnight.
tonight i wish for the sweetest dream...
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dont let it quietly expire...
11:06 PM
woo. i travelled all over Singapore today
nah exaggerated. basically, i went all the way to woodlands to meet a client.
woodlands very lively you know?
and got pasar malam! i really cannot dont eat.
so i bought otah :D
the ramly burger looked soo tasty i wished i didnt eat my tuna bread beforehand
i wanted to eat cheese sausages but stopped since i can have it in the canteen
ok continue tomorrow
am very tired cause i suffered from insomnia
am watching nip tuck now. face transplant. quite eww.
4:27 PM
you know how great it feels to wake with a painless throat
and be able to swallow your saliva so naturally
yea after experiencing serious sore throat of excruciating pain for a while
you learn to appreciate even such a simple, all too natural routine
today i woke up very early in the morning, not by choice, to pee.
and to my horror, i felt a disturbing bit of pain at my throat
must be all the fried chicken wings and chocolate cake i ate
yes concerned, i was very. so i went to drink some water immediately.
and place a cup of water by the bedside just in case, and then back to slp i went.
no way will i let a sorethroat come creeping back quietly.
guess what im doing now?
eating nutella.
am i an idiot or what? lol.
why do i have such infinitesimal self control when it comes to food?
and why give me such a big appeitite.
aye. byebye.
yet another stain on my badly stained pillow...
3:13 PM
do you know the real me?
i hope you do
tomorrow. 2nd job begins.
i predict im gonna be super busy.
cause i'll still be doing my current job. except on sat and sun.
tired or not. i wouldnt know till the end of the week.
but i guess it wouldnt really matter.
not to me or anyone else.
a couple of days ago i wanted to ask why do i always have nightmares
but after a few days, i had a sweet dream!
i dreamt of wu zun! WAHAHAHAHA. lucky me.
next can let me dream about xiaozhu please? :D
anyway i dont mind having nightmares.
i quite enjoy my weird, scary and unimaginable dreams. sometimes unusually depressing too.
just bring it on. im sucha dreamer.
i have quite a collection of memorable, classic dreams.
but never have i encountered deja vu.
hrm why do people experience it?
i think it's actually pretty scary.
like that time while playing mahjong darren suddenly said he just deja vu-ed.
and it's of ME. maybe it was the atmosphere and the tone he used....i freaked out a little teeny weeny bit. wahahhaha.
ok so maybe im quite glad i dont dejavu.
i dont know why the tagboard is so weird.
i replied longyou and hz there TWICE but they just dont show up after tt.
they show up after i click "post". but not after tt.
hrm why.
anyway.. i replied. I WANT TO MEET UP WITH LONGYOU.
haha. and to hz i also ate beef noodles lar. but from parkway one. -_-
8:40 PM
the first couple in the skating with celebrities...WOW.
i HAD to applaud them. in front of my tv.
eh the third couple's good too. more graceful. haha.
SURVIVOR TONIGHT! yay!
today i whipped up a meal for my mum and i
hehe. 3 dishes. cabbage. fish (VERY NICE! :D:D) and steamed egg with minced pork.
MUAHAHAHA. im so proud of myself!
another thing to show off.
my nails are so nice now! :D:D:D
gold with white decorations. diy. yay!
face shop nail polish for 2.50 only. go get it! :D
oh i got another job alr.
and my sorethroat has finally recovered. fully recovered.
supportive? ignorance? or just not enough?
owell. i'll prefer to think the first 2. haha.
怎么连你也变遥远了？
officewear couple concept
very cute.
1:04 AM
YES PEOPLE!
i changed the bloody (literally) template!
i'll miss you..suicidebutterflies...
oh. i forgot my blog add IS suicidebutterflies. HAHA.
anyway i changed it cause...CANT RIGHT CLICK.
useless leh.
haha. ok. now go tag and say ..
"OMG KAI KAI SO CUTE!!!"hehe. i read ur mind yea?
:D
1:56 PM
i desperately wanted to blog last night after watching survivor
but i just couldnt arrive at this page! grr
i had lots and lots to bitch about survivor
how i hope the threesome will get out instead of jonathan and all that
cause my 2 survivor watchers on the list werent online..namely honsiang and szujeng
so i needed my blog lol
anyway no worries alr cause after tt szujeng came to talk to me about it
of course i bombarded him with all my complains hoho
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i wish i could announce my flu has fully recovered and boast about it
dream dream dream.
sigh. it's been more than a week alr
my sore throat is horrid. imagine the agony when i wake every morning.
PAIN. haha.
take note. i dont eat any peanuts or whatsoever alr ok! maybe just a bit of chilli still
BUT i drink lots and lots of water.
so much tt i frequent the toilet and think i waste too much toilet paper this way
and waste too much water flushing
aye dont you just love that american idol advert?
lol. so cute!
i have an interview later at 4
wish me luck cause i really want this job although the pay isnt very good
but i like the other parts of it :)
i want it~
suddenly i have a few jobs on hand
hrm. but i guess this shall do.
yes even though the pay.....sigh.
get well soon xinyi!
11:12 PM
WAHHH DAMN SIANeverything has yet to recover la!
sore throat was getting better and i thought i could safely eat some peanuts
ya right. yes it got worse -_-
ok stupid me. anyway a little bit of cough now
everyday i come to my blog to report what new illness crept in
lol. cough. this one i really dislike.
flu flu go away.
blocked nose + sore throat. definitely not the best combination.
why? when i slp i gotta breathe with my mouth
and ALAMAK. i got sorethroat. extremely painful like that.
haha.
i have a tissue stuck up my nose
i am going to watch more tv now
yes tokyo juliet
and i want to watch guess guess guess
what time does it start?
or did i miss it alr -_-
gosh. wu yan zu frigging goodlooking.
ok yet another nonsensical entry :D
CIAO MY BELLA~
11:08 PM
wah damn sian
im still sick
the sorethroat is recovering well
but i think it's quite slow hrm
when i was a kid i had sore throat and i ate a whole tube of lozengers in less than a day.
muahahhaha. like sweet. but well it recovered.
after i found out it's medicine and learnt you cant eat so many lozengers so fast
my sore throat usually recovered in a day.
ok anyway watching survivor
love YUL!
he won right? i think so.
hehehe.
asians rule. =p
as i was saying..damn sian.
because i have a bit of flu now.
wah what is wrong with me!
i havent been sick for so long. (yea all my mcs and parents' letters are fake hehe)
guess it's about time. (choy)
lol. great start for 2007
hopefully recover by sunday :D
havent stepped out of the house (xcept to see the doc) for 3 days
which is good
because i successfully made it through these 3 days with 10 bucks
and my 10 bucks' still here.
hehehehehehehehehehe.
anyway. GIVE ME A JOB PLEASE.
1:09 PM
it was a good thing i decided not to meet longyu for a night at the museum yesterday
i could have fainted in the cinema lol
i woke up with a disgusting sore throat
and by afternoon headache and fever developed
my tears were piping hot! hahahahaha
ok now my fever is gone phew
but the sorethroat and headache stays
im gonna see the doc later since mummy says so
on tue...went far east to shop with wanyier longyou and lulu
lulu is sooo cute! ahahhaha
wanyier's camera phone damn good right?
this sunday there'll be another 13/05 dinner
farewell dinner for dean and jon. hahahahaha!!
dean said our mahjong gang cannot san
yea!
what's not to love about thirteen?
:D
happy people.
lol.
6:14 PM
YO i just woke up
Happy 2007! :D
had a pretty great night for countdown with my class yesterday
i look weird in the pictures sigh
maybe it's because of my swollen eye! lol.
oops i see apple's watch and zq's keys on my table
haha. we went to bugis for dinner
QIANMIN XINYI APPLE ANGELINE :D:D:D:D
who else but YEOW ZHI QIANG <3>
then proceeded to esplanade for the huge crowd and increased humidity to make ourselves all sweaty and sticky and of course for the 8 min fireworks at 12 am.
haha. later we spent more than an hour to get out of the area
it was pretty fun defying the law climbing over the fence and see everyone running across the road
finally as usual, all stayed overnight at my house
which explains apple's watch and zq's keys
BEN OW the cute army boy! on the train he said he wanted to treat all of us cause he was very happy yesterday
haha. one word. CUTE!
lol my bf has a lot of expressions in pictures
on the last day of 2006
i gave myself a painful cut
broke my nail
haha we shall look at it on a bright side
it's the end of all bad things !
new year resolutions and wishes?
dont tell you :)
haha. actually im just lazy to type anymore
bye people!
great year ahead to all!
Labels: sunshine makes me smile
YES PEOPLE!
wanyier's camera phone damn good right?
happy people.
QIANMIN XINYI APPLE ANGELINE :D:D:D:D
who else but YEOW ZHI QIANG <3>
BEN OW the cute army boy!
lol my bf has a lot of expressions in pictures
