trouble with canned dogfood.
1:28 PM
guess what fellas
I FUCKING CUT MY FINGER AGAIN.same finger. close proximity to the previous cut.
but deeper.wtf!!!
i sat on the couch and used a tissue to absorb and try to stop the blood flow and suddenly..
i almost fainted.
haha so i sat down there thinking "shit im gonna faint. what if i faint, shld i call yuankai here to help? "
and then i contemplated whether to walk upstairs to grab my phone and a bra to wear...
and so i did. i tottered up the stairs, almost going blind as dark spots blurred my vision, and crashed into bed immediately because i really couldnt take it anymore. haha.
well if you're wondnering, i didnt faint haha. almost but phew, no.
so after i laid in bed for what felt like eternity of buzzing in my ears, i felt better, got up, put on my bra and aid myself down to eat some oreos and hershey kisses.
i guess i needed a sugar-rush.
throughout the whole thing, jack was oblivious to my fainting spells. hahahaha!!
and now he's licking my legs like mad. :)
decided not to submit the timesheet today.
shall just meet up with the sponsers later to get the contract signed and then syndro outing.
i hope they dont dunk me.
not today, not in seniors camp too. haha
ahh...i dread dread
DREAD bathing later.
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1:19 PM
finally my job has come to an end
standing in heels for 11 hours for 4 consecutive days is no fun at all
it's amazing how much attention one can get just by donning the F1 outfit, which btw was not really F1-ish but more singtel-ish
im just a flyer distributor not a showgirl!
so anyhow it's great to work with people of my generation :D
ive decided to laze around for the whole of today cause im dead beat and i guess i should keep jack company for at least a day.
oh i cut my hand this morning while opening jack's food
been a while since ive such a deep cut (read: a cut thicker than..papercuts. Hahaha)
ok but it's really pretty deep. deep but small.
so i got into BAF.
should i take up a second major? suggestions?
i miss you baby. :(Labels: random
you gain some and you lose some
6:58 PM
what have i done?
if i can only stop thinking for myself for one minute.
fuckin self-centred.
but i dont know why it just hurt so much.it's really contradicting and my own thoughts just confuses me like mad.
i keep trying to put myself in another's shoes but with the left foot in and the right staying glued to my own shoe. no not a half-hearted attempt but it's just.. im not that selfless and saint-like a person and i just cant help it that my feet feels more comfortable in my shoes than yours.
and then a moment of truth... both foot were in my shoes and i got sucked into my own whirlpool of arguments and i lost control.
i did, in the words of ouer, a horrible stunt.
times like this the truckload of repititive reasonings collide and fuse frantically, then explode like a supernovae and the end product: a supermassive black hole. ---> BLANK. there you go, i go blank again. which means no right words, no coherent, structured sentences that makes sense.
ok stop talking stop talking, lin xinyi.
it's always like that with me isnt it, the more i try to make things right they more wrong they get.
silence is the best policy, actually, really.
Labels: paper shoes
harder and harder to breathe
2:43 PM
do you feel very blank-y very often?
cause i do. like you're neither happy nor sad but just very blank and usually more skewed to the negative side of blank than the positive side.
omg i am talking trash but still, i hope you get me.
i want so much to put all these blank feelings into words so i can get rid of this blank-et over me but because it's simply too BLANK and neutral, no vocabulary comes to my utterly blank mind.
so anyhow ive been plagued with the flu bug and it takes my breath away, literally. food doesnt satisfy me because they taste so blah and sometimes my blocked nose gets so bad i cant eat and close my mouth for more than 5 seconds if not i'll be suffocated.
i need to study astro because i flunked my astro quiz. but i really dont like to study and i think i prefer studying for accounting and fm to studying for ASTRO. in retrospect, i should have just stuck to my decision of taking mc for the quiz and i really shldnt have taken up special sem in the first place. :(
after the exam and the job and the camp, my holidays will only be around a month to speak of. that's so......pathetic. i have an insatiable appetite for holidays!!!
screw special sem.
im gonna go back to world of F.R.I.E.N.D.S
the only thing that entertains me now.
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