i am so full of shit.
11:38 PM
AHHHHH I AM SO MOODY
or as poh says.EMO EMO EMOOO.
save me! hahahaha. ok let's see i NEED to shop. like tomorrow. but nobody go with me! :(
wed zouk. thur hair cut + bbq. fri ..? aiya nvm.
I AM SO SADDDDDDDDD.
wahhahahaha. i wonder if i can forge strong friendship bonds with the people in my og. i hope so? i want a group of friends like that in 13/05 where we can meet up and have fun with.
i dont want it to be just girls. i want a mixture of both genders.
i wonder...will it happen?
bless me!
and YOU! you you you you YOU!
why do you keep slipping into my mind these 2 days. grr.
even in my dreams you appear with such a traumatizing plot.
my ex with my bestie?!?! wtf?!?!
HAHAHHAHA. too traumatizing. me yet to recover from the unbelievable nightmare.
yesterday on the way home we met this spain 17 year old kid on a wheelchair. travelling around the world alone. yea you didnt see wrong. alone. wheelchair. 17 year old.
RESPECT. utmost respect for him. i took a picture with him :D hehehe. now i have a young shuai angmoh
boyfriend! alright jk. he's called...Albert i think.
so anyway we lead him to parkway parade and then to the underpass to ECP. sigh.
what kind souls we are. :p he's gonna sleep in a hammock (spelling?). which immediately reminded me of my SP (secret pal)! hahaha. he slept in one too for the first night of camp. at sentosa. cool eh?
albert asked what was "f you" in chi. that caught us both.
hrm what is it? "ta ma de?"
hahaha. right?
shoppping shopping.
TAMADE nobody shop with me tomorrow!
arghh...
TAMADE. byebye la.
Labels: mess, random
rja- damn regret.
10:51 PM
is this the end?
the
long awaited closure?
"is there anything else still with me?"doesnt seem to be.
but i just couldnt say no.
we were once a part of each other. have i withdrawn every remaing part of myself from you completely?
i should. and i have to. because this is it.
we've both given up this fight eventually.
my wound too deep. your regrets far too late.
what a pity. you were my everything. haha.
not anymore xinyi. not anymore. so stop the tears.
dont reminisce.
i'll pull through. the worst is over.
yea. sounds like closure.
people expect me to be over it alr.
to be strong. i wonder if i lived up to those expectations.
i think i did. but times like this, i wonder why i still crumble inside.
too rush i guess. sorry but tonight. im not okay.
it f-ing hurts. sigh.
but then again, we all know i'll be up and well by tmr.
wont you xinyi?
yea yea yea.
im the cool chilli padi girl.
Labels: june's fool, paper shoes, the last goodbye
2:42 AM
stop it xinyi.
stop being so frank.
you really have to stop it.
honesty is NOT the best policy.
this gets worse especially in the night.
i dont know why im becoming more and more straightforward a person.
Labels: paper shoes
1:41 AM
BIG SIGH.
firm. waver. firm. waver. waver. waver.
tired and low.
orientation camp briefing today. more like bonding.
i thought it was alright. in fact not bad.
hope everything goes well.
and turns out i can just flip flop in my slippers for the whole camp.
say yay.
hectic hectic weekend.
argh.
supremely tired.
and too many too many things running through my tired mind.
i want PEACE!
Labels: paper shoes
i love my chivas bag
12:17 AM
let's see...
bummed around at home for practically the whole week.
resulting in me becoming lazier and lazier and lazier.
no more laziness. because come monday...orientation camp! must say although ive been lamenting a lot bout it with sighs and "sian..", i am actually quite excited about it too ! am also glad that at least there's a familiar face in my group..shuli. and a nice familiar face at that :D
i always thought making new friends in a pair or a group is much easier than doing it alone.
well that's for me. cause haha i am actually very shy. dont laugh. i am really very shy. hahahahha!
and what's more, i look so dao and unfriendly and people love to judge. so i lose at the starting line.
my running shoes are pretty torn and im speculating that ill probably need one for camp activities like amazing race. which means to say i must get a new pair of shoes this weekend. argh! i also have to settle the tuition grant thing. arghhh! i am so lazy!
i got jinnie to help me get krispy kremes (HINT HINT YCR). she's coming back today (Sat). oh crap. which means to say i gotta get it from her at the airport. ahh. my sat schedule is so damn TIGHT. not to worry. i am afterall PSYCHIC. i will slowly go forsee and unravel the happenings of my beloved weekend :) and then plan ahead!
hrm i think i will fail. i am afterall. a last minute psychic. sigh.
must gain enlightenment.
i think reading ban's blog has made me blog very randomly. haha. talking about which, i talked to ban last night. like finally. yea im glad we conversed. but also shocked to realise how cynical he has become. hrm ppl aint that bad lar. haha. amd dont analyse every single word i say or take them so seriously! i dont think ur that full of pride. chill chill.
today i am a happy late (oops) girl.
of sandwiches, korean sweets and sashimi. i am happy :D
wonder why i only uploaded like 3 pics of HK? lol. cause all the other pics are scattered around (i meant with angeline and shimin and jinnie) and also in my new camera. ok i bought a new camera at HK. they say it's cheaper and jinnie's uncle was there to help..so there...a new GOOD camera :D which reminds me, i gotta go check out the prices in Singapore. for comparison.hehehe.
SO anyway. i cant upload the pics because..HAHAHA. my hard disk has insufficient space for me to install the software. HAHAHAHAHAHA! NOOB. i know i know.
which brings me to another bugging thing-to-do.
I WANT MY LAPPIE A-SAP.
i dont really crave for it. i actually am very happy with this com. CEPT for the fact of insufficient hard disk space. which is pretty damn and far too NOOB. i am an IT pro ok. i need a good com. :) k bluff. i wonder when will i be on the same level as wormie for lying about useless, rubbish and extremely unnecessary stuff. hrmmm....
ok today i was happy. but tonight i am abit confused and sad and regretfully...sad about stuff that hurt me. stuff that i can never put a closure to. stuff that i shld have alr make a stand but unfortunately waver again. sigh. i know you dont understand what the hell im talking about. haha. nvm it's not meant to be understood.
i cant wait for huanhuanai's vcd to be released in sg! hehehehe.
i will not be tempted to watch it on the micro screen of youtube. with occasional lags and blurry images. so stop tempting me poh hz. it's worth the wait. hehe. but i have no time anyway. hahaha.
wow a super long and disgustingly random post. haha. gosh ban's way of blogging is contagious.
but i cannot win him. but i am ok with not winning him. eh i am not saying you blog disgustingly ah. you blog funnily. haha.
im quite bothered with the "not good friends anymore". i know it's true. but..dunno what to say.
just doesnt feel good when the truth is put into cold hard words.
i watched this show on horoscopes and fengshuis and all that.
TOP 3 horoscopes who do not confide in others easily.
1. Taurus
2. Cancer
3. Gemini
they were revealed in the reverse order. so at first when i say Gemini..LEE LONG YU! hahahhaha! then i thought hrmm yea the description matched hers. andi thought i'll never be in. but OMG. 2. CANCER. HAHAHHAA. i laughed in front of the tv. and then 1. Taurus. TAN WAN YING! hahaha. v funny but true.
the same thing happened for the qns : TOP # HOROSCOPES WHO ARE EASILY CHEATED BY GUYS. sthg along those lines.
i forgot whether it was top 3 or top5, and my mum's horo, capricon was first revealed. then i keep laughing at my mum saying "HAHA. MUMMY YOU LEH!" .
then along came CANCER. HAHAHA. and me went "EH ME LEH. Mummy i win you."
my mum's turn to laugh. and commented we're both stupid girls.
one week's full of junk just tumbled out into this entry.
i am sorry if you read the whole lot of crap. HAHAHA. but it has been a while isnt it?
off to watch xiaozhu on da xiao ai chi!
bye fei ju.
Labels: friends, paper shoes, random
a sneak preview of HK 2007
1:18 AM
cheating hearts
4:31 PM
this is so unfair
so misleading.
it is not my fault at all.
and i feel so empty and sad.
partly due to the many nightmares i just had.
sigh i want to cry so bad.
Labels: june's fool, paper shoes
YUMCHAAAA Cha Cha :)
da di da di da di dadi DADIDADIDADIDADI
byebye!