my boyfriend is a dan bai :)
11:30 PM
every sunday my daddy cooks up a feast for the family
it may be due to my rare presence at home. hehe.
yesterday i woke up in the afternoon to this....
ROJAK!
i was surprised and deeply impressed with my daddy. how creative!
it doesnt only look nice, it tastes great too, really. hehe.
and dinner was as usual..quite a spread :)
i love homecooked food.
& my daddy loves to cook.
... & rollerblade.
HAHAHA.
lately my dad bought a pair of rollerblades from his friend and he has been blading to and fro the house EVERY sunday. well i dont know bout the weekdays, im only home on the weekends. and i gotta say my daddy is not only an independent learner, he's also a fast learner. AH...like me..it's all in the genes i suppose. :) anyhow, my dad's current obessession with rollerblading is quite funny and very amusing. and he says he really wants to go blading with me. :) someday perhaps, after the exams. sigh.
when i went to a senior's room to collect a t-shirt design, i saw a huge wilber pan wei bo's poster at his toilet door. a little amused, i was. i thought only girls like such male idols?
and then last night when my dad drove me back to hall, i saw ANOTHER huge wilber pan wei bo's poster on the wall of some random hall 1 guy's room. : so....guys like wpwb (initials. his name is far too long)?
maybe wpwb's coming concert in NTU will be flooded with males! hahaha! i wonder how wpwb will feel..hrmm..shiok that he's the idol of the same sex? (which is a status pretty hard to attain in my opinion. it's harder to appeal to the same sex than the opposite. right? yes you agree with me.) or sian that all his love songs are sung to a whole bunch of guys and he has no pretty girls to look at while singing? & maybe implying his low sex appeal and charisma to females..
personally i do find wpwb pretty good looking. he managed to lose 13kg (i think) for his new album. he stops eating after 6pm and runs everyday at 12am. impressive. great determination. how to lose man. i admire all these dieting and (crazy) weight-losing experts!
oh here's what my group does during OB seminars- mini (unhealthy) Picnics.
that's why i say i admire those dieters. how can they resist all the food available in the world? especially when it's placed right before them, like in OB semiars.
off to catch some sleep maybe.
and then back to work :(
seeing people mugging like mad in NBS scares me
like crazy.
for a while. -__- because i try not to think about how much i am lagging behind
like crazy.Labels: random
of MSN nick, book & perfume
12:10 AM
lo and behold!
while doing IT project i discovered that Tess Gerritsen has written a new book!
OMG I MUST GET MY HANDS ON IT! well after the bloody exams.
hrmm hrmm. cant wait
on a particular sunday night, actually last sunday
i received a small package under my towel. :)
Estee Lauder Pleasures Delight from the boyfriend.
:D :D :D :D :D
What more can i ask for?(except to get all info of IT, OBD, Marketing, Stats into my head without any work.)
hah. greed. :p
IT KILLS!!!
Labels: lovestoned, random
you can do it x 93487582354
2:20 PM
i gotta tell myself
IT is nothing. i can overcome it.
just leisure read and i will get it.
OBD is nothing either. Marketing too.
just read and all will be fine.
argh. studying is seriously not one of my forte.
STUDY HARD.
MAKE IT HAPPEN.
Labels: school
je t'aime @ 5am
11:31 AM
The Eskimo has fifty-two names for snow because it is important to them.
There ought to be as many for love.
Labels: lovestoned
oh well, we all do grow up.
5:29 AM
when i first saw it, i wasnt angry or pissed or sad or disappointed or whatsoever
let's just say, i didnt feel the way i used to when similar situations occurred.
because it's all too typical and predictable of you. and ive grown out of it.
you're not the boss in me. no more.
i was guilty too. haha.
far more guilty i bet. and my words, my actions, i deeply regret.
from some day this year, i told myself never to commit the same mistakes.
and i will cherish and treat whoever deserves it right :)
We are not the same persons this year as last; nor are those we love. It is a happy chance if we, changing, continue to love a changed person.-----------------------------------------------------------
i did stats tutorial 7! WOOTS.
like finally after procrastinating for 10000 years. phew.
many more to go sigh.
major shortage of time.
yuck.
speaking to angelinetanyanling sure brightened me up.
doesnt matter at all if it distracted me from my tutorial. hehehe. :p
time to catch some sleep!
Labels: 25061988, friends
2:26 AM
under my skin
3:42 AM
Lin Xinyi
you're not perfect and you can never be.
stop chasing after perfection. it's far beyond your reach.
but im not really chasing after it actually.
i just keep wishing i could be perfect and get all frustrated thinking about my imperfections.
see, that's the thing that makes all these whinings nonsensical and thoroughly redundant: i dont chase. i fret and get sad.
what a waste of time and energy and good mood.
to feel good about myself. to feel comfortable in my own skin. to increase my self-esteem. to be confident of myself. to be disciplined. to turn words into actions and go about getting things done/ achieving goals. determination.
there's always a way out.
make it happen.
P.S. i am so predictable isnt it? haha.
Labels: 25061988
back with a vengeance? not really la.
1:16 AM
when i woke up in your room to find myself staring at you
i dont know why but i had a sudden panic/worry that someday we'll fall out of love with each other
i'll never wish for that to happen, in fact i dread it to bits.
i wanna love you for as long as possible :)
i guess it's paranoia again, due to past experiences and the cynic ive become
afterall ive been in and out of relationships with these 2 guys.
one who brought me immeasurable love hurt, another was a case of mismatch, a mystery that till now i still cant figure out why we can never get along. or can i say i can never get along with.
it's irritating isnt it? being a paranoid. it saddens you sometimes and it tires the people around you, unnecessarily. i dont wanna be a paranoid. i dont wanna be a burden. there im worrying excessively again. afraid of being a burden. afraid of being an irritant. argh, it's a vicious cycle!
i didnt knew my past r/s would have such a deep yet subtle effect on me. only at times when i think back on what i just did or question why i behave the way i do, did i realise what a significant impact 2 years of unhealthy r/s has done to me.
i shouldnt blame, but it's hard not to. but actually, i'm not really blaming. sometimes i just wish i've seen and experienced less of the vice of relationships..i could be less cynical, less afraid of falling out of love....could be...but not for sure.
i know i'll probably be a worrier sometimes, still. i wont push the blame for that.
actually i think i probably made you a paranoid too. haha. my bad.
i am just rambling and rambling. pardon me if i dont make sense k. heh. dont take it to heart..
hrmm..actually a part of me is pretty glad that you did what you did (haha) and left me with no choice but to leave. because without your deed, i'll most probably still be wallowing in the horrid past. without you, i dont think i'll be able to appreciate how great a guy my bf is, how lucky a girl i am.
wah i talk to TYL until dunno what to type alr.
ahhaha
cyas im so screwed up academically. :(
over the moon still :D
& is my entry very mushy? hrmm hahah.
apologies.
Labels: lovestoned, paper shoes
i'm not sorry
12:21 AM
i cant take it no more.haha. seriously, enough already.Labels: paper shoes
there's no world outside
1:46 AM
ive seen thee and thou art enough
:)
tired.
project presentations are like neverending
pukes.
just had supper. again. sigh.
people. you need. to. stop. feeding. me.
6 dishes at chomp chomp for 2.
"pretty scary.."
and..
am i losing my friends because of this?seems like it.2 down..1 more to go? hopefully not.sigh. what a pity. Labels: friends, lovestoned, random
