chupachups
6:46 PM
-28sept
I was about half in love with her by the time we sat down. That's the thing about girls. Every time they do something pretty... you fall half in love with them, and then you never know where the hell you are.cute. very cute. hahaha.
im about halfway through my OBD 12 pages essay. (yea i know. 12 pages sounds too exaggerated to be true.)
stats quiz carries a GROSS weightage of TWENTY PERCENT. ---> wtf?
let's hope it's really 20% for 2 quizzes as interpreted by TYL.
marketing project almost done. just some additional slides and the organising of at least 40 slides. yea you didnt see wrong. FORTY! hahahaha! KNOWLEDGE IS POWER.
reccess week was not reccess-y at all. like wormie said, university is akin to mini a levels!
come monday, it'll be like prelims for me. just MUCH MUCH less prepared and needing a hell lot of luck to pull me through.
come thursday, it'll be post-prelim break. which will probably last for hrm...3 days? awesome.
is your hatred for school slowly emerging too? or maybe escalating?
BIGSIGH.
i want to SHOP! after "prelims", im gonna shop till i drop with my mum on sat. remind me to go home in the afternoon on sat!
i want to do a manicure! it's been so long since i last had my beautiful long nails painted. SIGH~ BIMBO.
i want to buy my running shoes! i've been procrastinating since 2 or 3 weeks ago. unbelievable. must get it next wed!
i want to read! not textbooks or notes please. i want to read storybooks and novels. :( i miss the feeling of being lost in time and space while reading.
BIGSIGH! cant wait for thursday :)
oh ya, hockey training on thursday too. awesome.
ok hope it'll be fun and i wont die.
DESPITE all of the above shit from university life,
i do sound and look happy and gay dont i?
non-inclusive of the occassional paranoia and stress-filled panick attacks
yea life will be good with my wonderwall. :)
AIM: WORK HARD AND PLAY HARD!
overused but still apt!
haha. this post is more like a reminder to myself of what ive done and what i gotta do.
erm. oops?
Lastly. 28th Sept: HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LIANG SHIMIN AGAIN AND AGAIN! MUACKS LOVE LOVE! meet up and celebrate soon we WILL! :D and i miss HK with you and co. terribly! Hope you had a great bdae :D
Labels: lovestoned, random, school, sunshine makes me smile
I HATE SCHOOL.
10:18 PM
AB103 Statistics: QUIZ TUT 1-6. Monday.
AB112 Marketing: Assessed Presentation. Monday.
AB113 IT: QUIZ SEM 1-6. Wednesday.
AB105 OBD: Stupid whatever essays. Tuesday.
ARGH!!!!
I WANT TO DIE.
FUCK!
Labels: school
Thnks Fr Th Mmrs
2:37 PM
hey it's 2.38pm and i just woke up
from something pretty haunting, something turning history.
i was back to how it felt like when i was seventeen
cold, afraid, angry, taken forgranted, very alone.
i didnt quite picture you in my dreams, maybe i havent seen you for too long.
but everything that happened
was without a doubt, what you used to do to me.
the endless waitings in your room
the cold treatment which i'll never wish to relive
my exit from your house alone, trying but always failing to control the tears
and now i recall the long quiet walks along the streets of tampines
how people stop and stare at this sniffing, tearful girl. hahaha.
i cant believe i dreamt of something so yesterday.
i woke up feeling so damn hurt and so confused and...i just started to cry.
"haunting"- that was the first word that came to me
and for a moment, i was really lost. in time and memory.
maybe we ended everything in a bad note and the last thing i felt was pain.
and now, the bitter moments seem to appear more vivid than the good times.
it took me a while to pull myself back to september 2007.
where you're not the man in my life anymore. (but still, thanks for the memories, both the good and the bad. ive learnt a lot.)
where there's someone else.
someone who never makes me cry.
who made me smile and laugh so hard i forgot how it feels like to hurt so much.
who's always always there for me no matter what.
who denys me the "joy" of travelling alone. hahaha.
ok enough. listing will be neverending and too sugary it'll be diabetic. hahaha!
a new beginning.
i can, i want to and i will do this.
:)
6:16 AM
click.
1:53 AM
sigh.
im sorry.
stop it xinyi.
quit being a spoiler.
happy thoughts.
happy thoughts.Labels: paper shoes
5:25 PM
a pain in the ass.
what's wrong with all these guys today
argh.
Labels: mess
"you're more than okay"
1:19 PM
pretty good. life has been pretty good :)
of course non-inclusive of the sad fact that i am still at tutorial 1 for all modules. but i try to keep that buried somewhere deep in my mind. sigh.
pageant's officially O-V-E-R! no more eating away too much of my time!
BUT i am still constantly in need of more time. ask me why...i think it's the many distractions in hall.
i NEED to buck up. badly. :(
and of course, self-discipline. sigh.
ahh. wrongwrongwrong.
i wasnt suppose to talk about how pathetic i am in terms of school work.
anyway dnd was not bad. i got a consolation :p hall queen xt and king yonghow!
i sorta expected the outcome and im really lazy to upload the pics.
hahahaha. and i am having yet another headache.
anyway, pageant was really and truly a great new experience. am really lucky to be part of it. :)
after dnd, each og went to their respective hotel rooms. LUKA shared with birken.
and early in the morning at 5am, we got chased out of Meritus Mandarin hotel room.
LOL. can you believe it? so disgusting. getting chased out at 5am. rendered all of us homeless.
THIS KIND LEH!
but still, i had a great night. :)
so true..it's really the people present that matters most.
the best,the largest, the heaviest, the prettiest bouquet ive ever received.
it's currently dying slowly in my hall. i refuse to untie that ribbon to maybe try and prolong the life of the lilies and roses a bit. you know by putting it in a vase. every single bit of the bouquet is just too perfect. i simply cannot bear to "dismantle" it and destroy my memory of it! hahaha! so there, it's dying quickly but beautfully (still. heh) in my dear hall room. but no worries, i took 10 000 pictures of it for rememberance. yup that's what pictures are for :D
i must comment that huanzhi and dean are no different from KIDS!
ahhahaha! army can really do wonders. put huanzhi and dean together and you'll get amazed at how 19 year old guys can become so kiddy. i think the main cause is huanzhi though. HAHAH :p
please dont kill me. nevertheless, the morning call i received did brighten up my day and made me laugh quite a bit. maybe one day we can ALL go out together ya? wahahhaha. will be hilarious.
i think im a little bit of a paranoid.
sometimes i think too much of what-ifs. especially when it comes to the fragility of life.
i always make it a point to visit my grandmother every so often. lately ever since uni started, i havent been having dinner at my grandma's place for quite a while. ive always been really afraid of losing her. some day the inevitable will occur i know, i just hope it'll come very very very very very extremely supremely late. i went to HK and bought her a bracelet that blesses one with good health, superstitious me i know, but better there than never. haha. today i finally had the time to eat at my grandma's! i took pictures with ah gong ah ma. hahaha!
zhu ah gong ah ma chang ming bai sui!
supremely shagged.
time to catch up on my tutorials.
SIGH.
i hate it!
Labels: lovestoned, school, sunshine makes me smile
-28sept
free fall
