i am not studying at all today
fuck.


WTF are you doing lxy?
GP is only one day away
you must be one of the most unprepared in class
or in sch
hoho
fuck.


i cant study at home


head
ache

am i even normal anymore?
why dont i feel the stress
why didnt i cry
how could i slp for 10 hours at this point of time
and not to say watch tv for hours
I NEED TO CRY.
NOW.
not when i get back my results
i havent gave 100% to any major exams before
havent got back my results and be ecstatic
and know i worked my ass off for it
now there's no more time
again. no more time.
im always late.


why not go study ur ass off now in this limitied period of time
and stop using the computer
argh. WTF ARE U DOING. XY!!
how can someone be so undisciplined?!
FUCKK!!!



argh.
now fucking go study.
we all run a perpetual rat race
LOL.

on repeat mode.
loves it!

for those who didnt read the new paper
this was what it wrote on the chinese music awards


"She's the Best. and her and her and her."




LOL!!!
a confusing ceremony indeed.

i havent start on GP
do you think it's ok?
or am i dead alr?



life's a bitch.
for now.

first and foremost
HI YUHAN
it's ur virgin visit, enjoy!


lol.


i see the picture has been pretty traumatising
suddenly so many tags!
and chengrui made it a point that he must tell everyone who reads his blog i am morbid.
but i dont love that picture!
i just wanna gross you people out :D



the saliva very gross hor? :S


my eating disorder is back T_T
i am eating non-stop again.
i really love food you know?
i want to eat beef noodles...
i miss you!
hopefully i can get to DEVOUR it tmr
lol


kangta is LOVE
rain's I DO too...

hi.

didnt do much today.
just a chem paper.


having a headache
and i feel pretty low


sigh


it's a lonely battle.

suddenly
my life is so interesting!


isnt this queer
everyone is complaining they have no life while so many things are happening to me


or maybe it's because
i too..have no life..so i give all these little things that befall onto me much more attention and "appreciation" than they really deserve.
anyway. something happened again today.
AND IT'S DISGUSTING.



i bought a packet of cream puff from the bakery shop opp tjc
went to expo and i offered sam one
i went back to my seat took a bite and i was taken aback by the disgusting sour smell
then i noticed some super tiny hair-like mould on the cream (thanks to my purrrrrrrrfect eyesight :D)
then..I WANTED TO PUKE.
i went to sam. i think he also wanted to puke cause his whole face was red and he looked like he was in excruiciating pain
no la not tt serious la. but ya he was disgusted by that stupid CREAM PUFF too.
but anyway he downed lots of water and was alright alr!
phew~ but me leh. I CANNOT FORGET THAT DEAR CREAM PUFF.
the magnificent smell..the alluring taste...the wonderful facade it put up.
i wanted to puke. i was extremely grossed out.
I HATE YOU CREAM PUFF FROM THAT SHOP OPP TJC.



ok im done.
anyway i had lagsana today. a hell lot of biscuits and chips. and i just had hokkien mee. v v nice!
yest i had 2 bowls of icecream and a small icecream bread
and 6 dark chocs. each costs 80 cents. but it was free yay
the day before i had 5 mcnuggets and some chicken with beancurd wrap and oreo cheesecake for supper.
and tmr is alr planned. BK breakfast early in the morning.


T_T


I AM DEAD.
i eat so much.
until sam ask me "you excercise a lot is it?"
but i dont exercise at all
and that is why I AM GOING TO DIE soon.
keep on eating la lin xinyi.
eat until you die.

today i bring all of you great news!
i "met" my psch fren today
but i didnt recognise him
later at night online i told him im 166cm tall
he replied
"yea you are tall for a girl. i saw you today wad. "
JOY TO THE WORLD!
later i confessed tt im only 158
he replied
"issit. you look tall. cheated my feelings."



:D:D:D:D:D
WOOOOTS.
& ou er said i look taller than apple



HOI PEOPLE
I AM TALL.
:D

i thought i only looked blur
how come i am so blur?!


on the way back home
i was too engrossed talking to shimin
i got down at Aljunied instead of Paya Lebar
and i was wondering how come so many guys and foreign workers suddenly
then finally i realised my stupidity


so i decided to just flag a cab
but NO CAB. and 158 came.
great so i take. no air con some more. thanks arh..
just so happen. i sat behind a wrinkled old man who reeked of alcohol
URK. at first i thought it wasnt that strong so i decided not to change seats
but i didnt anticipate a jam at geylang...and as time past..i started feeling nausea.
YUCK. argh!


ok great then i got down and switched to 33
the bus was innundated with foreign workers.
MORE MEN. more stares.
argh! i felt so insecure. and i was the only one standing.
and guess what. i thought i smelt alcohol again.


wah lau. im really suay man.
nvm.
time to study
today i finally got down to start doing a chem paper
i wanna die.

i kept buying the wrong food today
and the food wasnt exactly cheap
not to say worth the money in the first place


lunch: bbq chicken wrap or seafood pasta
i chose the first because it was cheaper.
it came out to be miserably flat and small and entirely different from the picture
the last time i drank the coffee there i had a horrible stomachache
remind me never to eat there again.

dinner..cause i had no time, i settled it conveniently. at starbucks
the choices: tuna petite or potato salad
i chose the latter cause the tuna like so little
WRONG MOVE. potato salad was DISASTROUS. YUCKY YUCK YUCK!
the taste of onion was so strong. i ate less than 30%.
my only consolation was the usual raspberry blended tea

supper: big box of donuts or one muffin
being greedy, i bought the box of donuts.
again. YUCK. i knew it wouldnt be v nice but i didnt know it would be that cruel to me.
now i miss the extremely chocolatey muffin :(


tmr..no more errors in the choice of food!
i will be very sad!
to compensate for today's horrible horrible meals,
beef noodles tmr :D
gosh i just smiled while typing that.
i must be going too food-crazy.

Labels: sunshine makes me smile

more pics!
before we begin
i figured everyone MUST know who DEAN is first.

Labels: sunshine makes me smile

the past week has been rather unproductive
anyway im here to update on certain memorable events!

1. i got into top 50 for econs! LOL. laugh.

2. i talked to ban on the phone! haha. for the first time ever. it felt a bit weird at first cause you know im really not good at such stuff. owells but it got pretty ok after tt. except for the laggy connection and my low batt phone.

3. Met up with zq :)

4. i slept at 9pm on a certain day! haha. while everyone mugs their heads off till late nights i slept at 9pm. incorrigible! haha.


5. Lastly, the most important event. Farewell Concert.


well because our civics tutor is Mr Chan---super enthusiastic and loves singing and loves our class to bitssssssssss------he decided we shall be the only J2 class performing on Farewell concert! woot! haha. at first everyone thought it was damn stupid. while everyone mugs we waste the whole of mon and sacrifice a physics tutorial for...ya guess what..singing. lol. but after everything, in fact after the rehearsal, i guess all of us felt it was totally worth it. i like my class even more now. when i think back about the performance, although not exactly great or outstanding, i feel warm inside. :) my class guys are a nice fun bunch who gets along very well with the girls. especially the LEP guys. is it the culture or what? i think LEP or CO..just chinese culture related people..have more integrity and are less demeaning. haha owells. of course the class girls are great too. though i must say i dont really talk to some.

anyway we sang "If We Hold On Together". i've sung that song in psch a billion times.lol. everyone in rss agrees. for the bridge, i had to sing a duet with danny. the whole performance was very informal, but as usual, i still panicked. haha. didnt really dare to sing loudly. owells. overall it went fine. Mr Chan is a great civics tutor. :) and we're one of his 2 fav class i think. hehehe.


had a class lunch after tt. beef noodles!


hon siang said sthg funny.
"i see xinyi put the chilli in i thought it was normal. because in sch they say she put one scoop in the noodles i also put. but now i know she is not normal. maybe in sch her one scoop is a bigger scoop." ok not v funny here. but u know how hon siang talks? ok u dunno. but it's funny when he speaks. after tt jon came and everyone told him "not hot one. blahblahblah" after eating it, he drank a mouth of water and everyone laughed like mad. and he said "not hot meh. i think quite hot leh." HAHA SO NAIVE!



we were just extremely noisy in the restaurant. played zhong ji mi ma after tt. FUNNY. very very funny. pics of it soon!


alrights
haven done anything constructive today except great time with 13/05
farewell!
bye!
bye tj!
oh ya bye tj.....i wonder if i'll miss tj..hrmm.. but my class..maybe?
my teachers. hrm. i like all my teachers. :D
ok it's late.

today let's examine a GP question which goes:
How does a country both benefit and suffer from where it is situated? Discuss your answer.
here we shall address the "suffer" component...

i woke up today with a bit of a sore, v dry throat
must be the haze.
after my afternoon nap i woke up with a painful eye
seems like a bit of an infection
must be the haze.
i dont care it must must must be the haze.
blame it.
blame indonesia for her stupid slash and burn culture.
how can this loophole in the system never seem to cure after ages.
therefore using the above as an example without further elaboration on my point. i conclude that a country may suffer in this way.


haha. what a lousy paragraph!
whatever. just hope my eye will be okay after one night.


lastly. apicture.

now snap out of it
smile
shake leg
and be happy.


what saved me.
my diary.
never fails to make me feel better after a session of tears and thoughts with it.
and of course who's been saving me all the time.
lee long yu. one person i can never thank enough.


suddenly
i love piano.