i am portrayed as the slacker. the one who doesnt study. the one who sleeps and oversleeps alot. the one who plays a lot. the one who skips lessons a lot.

and when i get A for my first stats quiz and A+ for my second stats quiz, i get comments like "you got study say you never study!" and "aiya you dont need to study also can get A one la".

they may just be casual remarks from friends but i believe they are emerging perceptions of me.

pretty disturbing. i dont think i did say i didnt study for my stats quiz? i did do my tutorials for this quiz. just not on time. just last minute.

i remember ys used to tell me that ycr commented that i changed and became super hardworking/mugger in JC. super hardworking&mugger?--->not true if observations are made based on just the 2 years in JC and if comparisons are made with JC people. however, extremely true if comparisons are made with my last 2 years in DHS (because i was a true blue play & sleep-hard "student" in secondary school).

I guess that's the problem with people. Not really a problem, just the natural cognitive structure of the human mind. From the start of university life, i havent been turning up at tutorials with my work done or reading the textbook until recently and before stats quizzes. and i do complain about not studying and all that, like every student does. and i skip a hell lot of lessons. hahaha.

Friends' perceptions of me as a slacker were probably reinforced by all these factors. And when i get A for stats, they think i lied when i said i didnt study :(. when in fact i didnt say i didnt study! i just didnt say i did my tutorials. you didnt ask! and im not even close to some!

so now i announce to the whole wide world...I DID DO MY TUTORIALS FOR THE 2ND STATS QUIZ. (just like many others! and yea just not on time.. like all you people! why fault me for that?) hahahaha. no im not angry or offended. just you know...thinking and wondering and yea. a bit affected. :p

aiya.

self-consciousness.

go away lar.