screwed up
that's how i am now
i woke up feeling completely lousy
like throughout the night there's this suffocating space enveloping me,
pressurizing me to be perfect, perfect. & more Perfect.
maybe because ive lost much confidence,
causing my imperfections to be magnified
& allowing my self-esteem to dip .
inferiority complex.
i need to be confident.
all the more i dont need someone to constantly lower my self-esteem
or try to change who i am.
i want to feel comfortable being who i am.
i want to feel pretty.
even if i am fugly, i want to feel pretty.
i want to feel good about myself.
ive been pretty grouchy and moody
i dont think it's right for others to have to tolerate me
nobody can handle a mess.
much less one who lowers my self-esteem.
i am not blaming.
believe me.
i couldnt hurt anymore, can i?
hah.
so stressed.
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