BLAME.
can i find someone to blame?
can i blame you?
the incessant rain was my saviour today.
there was 100m heats and i didnt wear suitable shoes or bring my pe attire
and of course i didnt feel like running
later last how? lol. bah choy.
im in a lousy mood.
damn it.
I dont feel it alright?
I DONT FUCKING FEEL IT.
no nothing. these are but all just for show.
hur.
FUCK.
ive become so hypersensitive to every single thing
and it's so damn tiring to live this way
i havent been doing ANY work at all lately
i look forward to NOTHING AT ALL
HATRED RAGE NEGATIVITY INSECURITY
engulfed me once more.
ARGH.
i rather not speak
who knows what would my caustic replies lead to?
every single glance went unnoticed
i need so much more attention than what you could ever give
there's always this image forming in my mind
of silent screams and futile cries
it's all twisted within
devoid of lasting joy
and the tears, permanently inked onto the picture
distress.
what happens when you become the main source of her pain?
